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....so I am having the darndest time replying to comments on my blog. So I am sorry for those that have left comments, I promise I am not ignoring you.

It seems like making the transition from working 40 hours a week to nill is taking FOREVER! We have since realized that my presence cannot not be obsolete, I must come in at lease 2 days; better than 5 I guess. Don't get me wrong, I love working with Brian and everyone else, and what we do makes me excited to be apart of it all; but the pull to keep Ian home seems to get stronger by the passing day. It only gets worse when I read friends blogs about how wonderful it is to be at home with thier children, and how awesome it is to give thier child the best part of them and not just what's left over. Face it, most of the time that's all that is available - Ian gets the left overs; gosh that made me cry just now. He deserves so much better than that. I know stay at home mom's have thier struggles too; both sides of the coin do.

Trish B. : Hi girl! Nicholas is so handsome ( as all of your boys are!) Ian and I would love to have a play date this summer, I think that would be great!

Please continue to pray for our family, it's so hard to know that my plan is not always God's plan and that maybe Ian will be our only son. But I am optimistic - all I need is prayer.

New Do.....

So, Ian is not a baby anymore. He is a full fledge Toddler decorated with what ever kind of food he is eating at the time and dedicated entirely to getting into anything and EVERYTHING! It was time to update his hair cut to match his current personality - kinda spikey on top to indicate his mischeiviousness. He looks like trouble. I will have to say, at times he is trouble! The other day he figured out that he must've grown a few inches b/c he could now reach the top of our kitchen table. So if it was with in a micrometer of the side, it ended up on the floor; where of course he tore it to SHREDS!

Ian loves, loves, loves to be outside. Which he indicates by throwing his body at the front door and yelling "SIDE!!" As if his life depended upon him getting outside - kinda funny - kinda not. Depends on my mood I guess. Here we are gong for a walk in our neighborhood, incidentally - everything I thought to bring along with us ended up on the ground, I just didn't notice until we had returned to the house. So we made 2 trips around the circle to find our missing objects.

Ian changes everyday. Everyday seems different. He is finding out that emotions can be hard to handle at times, and pretty tough to convey his wants. If his biggest struggle is fighting with a toy from time to time, we may be ok.

Brian and I have had huge prayer time dedicated to his care as of the last couple of months. I feel like I have missed out on so much and he is just getting bigger and changing so fast and he is doing it all at daycare. I feel like our daycare has been a blessing in sharing his new experiences, and I also feel like our business really needed me to be there full time. But Brian and I both feel like the time has come where I need to be at home with Ian and to try and grow our little family. God has placed the right people in our lives at the right time to allow this to happen. I am so excited about this change.

It's been a long time

It has been a while since my last post here. Ian has been battling sickness and pink eye for the last month. Of course, i got both as well. We have missed church for the last 3 weeks and I feel like this next week we will be back! Ian's pink eye came back after 1 day back in day care ARRGGG!! So frustrating. So back on the antibiotics he is and this time I will keep him on it for a week. I have had bronchitis for 2 weeks but FINALLY feel good, still coughing but at least I don't feel like death walking! Somehow Brian has managed to skip it all....why is that? Anyway that's what we have been up to.

Ice Storm

Ian likes to "brush" his teeth. It's really more like chewing on the tooth brush, but whatever will desinsitize him to it is fine by me!

Our neighbors tree behind us. 7 am this morning during our ice storm

I sure hope my Lilac Bush can with stand this kind of weather.

Ian walked a little in the snow,

then he fell and wanted to go back inside....

but not before taking a last look at the white stuff on the ground.

Here is the video of Ian brushing his teeth.

ROCK STAR!!!

Boys Best Friend

I caught this candid shot while Ian and Tater were lying on the floor. Ian sat up and just leaned in to kiss tater and said "Muah!"

Blessed and Grateful

01/10/2009
Today has been a great day. I actually finished the laundry, the dishes, managed to have Tater bathed as well as Ian! Ran Ian for a hair cut, we met dadda for lunch; picked up the dry cleaning and finally finished the 3 scarp book pages I have been working on. Yes, today was a very good day. I don't get many days where i can take it easy and relax, while completing household chores that have been on my to do list for months.

I feel so blessed and grateful for the "Momma's" and the "Peas" and "Tank - you's" that I could just well up and cry. Today I watched Ian while he slept, so innocent and peaceful. "God's grace in your face" I like to say. Before Ian was born I feel like I had a driven life but without a path. I feel that you can have a purposful and driven life without children. But for me, my life has a Different kind of purpose and is DRIVEN in such a different way that I can only thank God for this blessing.